I can't stop eating!
This is a gross problem I have. I literally eat all day! I'm at home all day with my 3 year old and have been since she was born. My days feel so long and I'm quite bored. I'm missing adult company and working. But I don't want anyone else to bring her up, so I'm comfort eating, my partner says I should go on a diet because I'm getting fat! That's really perked me up, the bad thing is that it's made me eat even more because I feel ugly now as well. I know it's my own doing but I've got into this vicious cycle now. I told my partner how he made me feel and he said he thought if he said that it would make me stop eating, he didn't realise I'd start eating even more. My friends don't really come round any more, my clothes don't fit so I'm living in sweatpants and baggy tops which is really attractive NOT! I used to be so outgoing and love dressing up in nice clothes but now I'm just a frumpy mum who's lost her identity and scoffing food down to feel better, but it ultimately makes me feel worse.
Yesterday I ate three big meals, but secretly I got through a packet of cookies, a mars, 3 bags of crisps and 2 sausage rolls from greggs. On top of breakfast, lunch and tea.
It's like that pretty much everyday. I don't know how to stop it, if I try not to eat too much I'll be ok but then something will stress me out and I start gobbling down calories so fast I don't even realise I'm doing it until I stop and see that half a pack of biscuits has been eaten. Then I have to go and a replace the packet so my partner doesn't realise what I've done.
I feel like I'm addicted to food. if there is some one who understands what I'm going through please reply, give me some hope that I can get past this.
Thanks for reading.